pondering...

If your feelings don't matter, does it revoke the right to feel them?

gibberish 3

fighting to hold on to someone detached ... heartache

lover=fighter

I'm a lover.
But it's in me to fight.
And I'm a better lover for it.

almost home

Home is where the heart is…but my heart lives somewhere else.


So for now I will dress these walls with pictures of memories that I refuse to let fade….

Paintings and sketches of her genius

I will blare the music she’s written herself so that her voice lingers here…

Cook her favorite foods to fill this place with her diverse cultures.

I will leave space for her things, so if she returns it’s like she never left.

Today the sun smiled through my window,
silly me.... I thought it was you...
but I rolled over to still find your side of the bed cold and vacant.

I miss how your tiny frame would find a way to take up all the space
and leave me no choice but to cozy up closer to you to keep myself from falling off the bed.
I love how everynight...you knew that the black pillow was my favorite (only because its yours)

What I would give to have our goodnight kiss again,
and hear you say "I love you, goodnight"