quiet down

lips are sealed
eyes are tightly shut
i have no idea what is coming next
but i guess that doesn't really matter much
because i know what is not coming

you aren't
we aren't.
us is only a figment of my hopeless romantic imagination
it's locked away in that part of my mind, my memory and thoughts...
where dreams are made
right before you hit that deep sleep
you know what i'm talking about, don't you?
when you relax your body
and your heart starts to calm
the time when you stop telling yourself "bedtime"
and you are actually dozing off...
that's where we are hidden

now i suffer from insomnia
and i can't visit that place anymore
i can't speak of those thoughts anymore
because really, they don't exist anymore
not for lack of love
but because i am having to force against MY human nature to quiet them down
to silence what i feel in order to save what may never...
well never say never, but you get my point

quiet down i say
quiet down the i miss yous and can't stop thinking about yous
keep to myself the you are the most beautifuls
because i have to keep my lips sealed
and my eyes tightly shut for you now

ironic isn't it?
to love me so deeply for who i am
and now ask of me to silence the intimate parts that you made love to
i felt alive because i was me
no changing that, and you never dreamed of it
but today, tomorrow, and forever in the future
i have to quiet down.