*index finger to lips*

For a long time now I have thought about deleting my blog.  I've lacked the emotional drive, mental strength and physical will to move fingers over keys to produce anything at all.  It's not that I don't feel, but it's kind of like I don't feel.  I don't know how to place words together anymore, I don't know how to dive deep and create anymore.  My ability to write has been stunted.  I have been told to not express myself, that my emotions are too much.  The one I was once able to talk to for hours has silenced me into a corner with no room to grow.  I have been infintely "shhhd" and now even my blog suffers because I have been quiet for so long that I lost the words that I wanted to say.  My blog is the only thing that listens, and I have nothing to tell it.  So now I hold my index finger to my lips and silence myself for a while.